oy oy

I'm on unemployment, single, sober and not smoking, what could be better? I hope you die

whats left (thoughts on thoughts)

These drinks go down like water
Its all bright lights from the floor
You can’t go lower than where you
Just when you thought that’s where you’d been

My body feels so sick
My thoughts are poisonous
You don’t want to taste this fear
You don’t want this at all my dear

For once I stand alone
Standing by myself outside the door
A smile and a wave won’t do
I need you to hold me close
And tell me there’s something left inside here

An empty cavern I call a chest
Nothing but pain and weakness
Where am I left
What have I left

I’m holding on but barely now
You say your prayers under breath
Why would this be aloud
No one knows and no one asks

Now I can’t stand alone
Outside in this fucking cold
I need you to hold me close
And tell me there’s something left inside me

knee cap

oh yeah

i was cleaning up my ollie to fakies on the quarterpipe down at the UTF and i fractured my knee cap when i fell, now i have to wear a brace and can't let my knee bend for like 5 weeks, it sucks, i'm going through skating withdrawls like an addict. It's gross to because when i walk/hobble my knee has a bunch of fluid over the cap and it literally feels like jello jiggles on my knee every step i take, i'll try and get pics of the actual knee but i have some shitty xrays from the walk in clinic they took new better ones, but i havent got them yet.....

long time

i havent posted in a long time

anyways i found my sketchbook and got the will power to scan the shit i drew onto my comp

so heres some of it

dang

i haven't posted for awhile
like 5 people might read this anyways
lots of new shit, got a GF who's hella cool
haha so not lots of new shit
1 thing
but hey, what the fuck have you done?
mmh so new pics and stories soon
because i know people read my stories like a bible
fuck

The hacking

camera man Jarred

my foot hurt

I have a very painful planters wart on my foot, I haven't really had time to go see a doctor about it so I finally just cut it off, I figured I may aswell have Jarred film it too.

I started cutting in with the knife and it doesn't hurt at first, but once I got close to the center of the wart it was like hitting a nerve, pain shot up my foot and through my whole leg, it was pretty painful.

Once I reached a certain depth blood just started spurting out, I didn't realize I was bleeding so much until I lifted one hand off my foot and blood went all over the floor and my pants. Later on I bandaged it with some toilet paper and a shoe lace.

I finally go the wart off and my foot felt way better, it actually hurts more to step on something wrong with the wart on my foot than it hurts to hack the wart off and bleed allover.

shameless fest 2008

mini mosh pit

So this spring I had a concert, well I hosted a concert, because I don't have a band. I was supposed to do a senior project that was for the better of the community so I held this concert and called it Shameless Fest, it was a rock/punk/rap show, we had it all. Admission was a can of food and we donated it all to homeless people.

The first band to go up was local, just a couple friends of mine who knew how to play songs and sing. I was surprised at how well they had their shit together actually.

Second band up was from Pullman, Squarezero. I knew they're guitar player from a school I went to a few years before, they were awesome. They had a few songs of their own and played a couple cover songs like "fortunate son" and "hey joe". I was super stoked.

Third band was a group of kids from cheweelah, Shooting Blanks. I had known their drummer and his brother for quite a few years and we were pretty good friends. They were amazing, probably one of the best shows of the night, they played for well over and hour and still had songs to go. They did a lot of blink-182 covers, but also had a lot of songs of their own.

Up next was the most hardcore band of the night, Hypochrist was a canadian punk/thrash band that I had seen a couple times. I knew the members through my ex-girlfriend and from random run ins at the skatepark. They definately ripped, they played harder, faster and in true punk style, drunker than anyone that night.

Finally was the group most everyone came to see, 2Twisted, these local small town rappers knew how to rhym, and with a whole knew album of songs to spit at the crowd they definately kept everyone entertained.

As the night grew on though it began to rain, I thought people would start heading home, but they just kept packing in and the rain made for a better show because pepole packed right up to the stage. in the end it was a good show for a good cause and ended up making a decent photo story too.